So yesterday, I asked my husband to attend ‘The Feast” in Marilao. At first, he was hesitant saying, “ano na naman ba yan?” I told him, we will just attend a mass and a talk afterwards. So he said yes but in one condition. He will go somewhere first then we will go straight to “The Feast”. I said it’s fine as long as he’ll be home at exactly 4:00 pm. It was around 2 in the afternoon and we just finished our late lunch. So while he’s gone, I prepared myself already and clean the house a little bit. I have a feeling that he will be late (as usual) but I composed myself not to be annoyed. I want to be prepared emotionally for that will be my first time attending “The Feast”. At 4:00 pm, I started to message him and call him saying we’re late for the event. The start is at 5:30 pm until 7:30 pm. I started to feel annoyed, but I prayed not to be haha! I asked the Lord to allow my husband to be home asap and hopefully He would blessed him today so the Holy Spirit would touch him and absorb whatever the preacher would tell us today. At around 5:00 pm, he’s finally home. He makes lambing so I won’t get mad at him. But I didn’t even look at him. He rushed to the bathroom and took a bath for I guess 2 minutes only! Hahaha! At exactly 5:15 pm we left the house. He drove the car as fast as he could. But it’s quite far from our house so we arrived around 6:00 pm.
The venue was at Cinema 2 of SM Marilao. At first I was a little nervous because my husband is asking me if they are really a Catholic Organization. He was like, “may bayad ba yan?” It was funny but my husband asks anything in this world haha! So We finally reached the entrance where we were given a Kerygma Magazine and an envelope for the love offering. Then I said, “I told you, walang bayad!“
Yeah, we were late and we found a group of youth singing and dancing. I felt a little strange. I was like, “Lord, help me, my husband will misinterpret this. I was expecting for a mass and not like this.” My husband was just pretty quiet until we found a seat for us. I was quiet too. I was checking the whole place. Then suddenly my husband told me, “sure ka catholic to?” then I said, “oo naman, look at that corner, there’s Mama Mary. I’m just not so sure why there’s no mass”. Then he kept quiet again. A little later, he took a photo of the kids performing on stage and he sent it to our family group chat. I told him “huy wag mo muna isend yan, baka iba isipin ni Nanay” the he said “bakit? akala ko ba Catholic naman yan” then I replied, “kahit na, basta, wag muna baka isipin non-catholic”. He immediately deleted the photo. I wanted him to listen to the preacher first before he would send or say anything to anyone.
Not a little later, the preacher came on stage. His name is Bro JP. His introduction was like this, “Alam mo ba kung bakit ka nadirito?” then my husband whispered to my ear “Ako hindi ko alam” but atleast he’s smiling haha! Then Bro. JP said, “Hindi aksidente ang pagpunta mo dito, may plano si Lord sa’yo. Kung may mabigat ka man problema ngayon, hindi mo na makayanan at hindi mo na alam ang gagawin mo, magtiwala kang tutulungan ka ni Lord“
“I will ask the father, and he will give you another Helper, who will stay with you forever. He is the Holy Spirit, who reveals the truth about God. The world cannot receive him or know him. But you know him, because he remains with you and is in you.”
Then the music played, I was praying, “Lord I don’t want to cry here. Not in front of my husband.” But I know deep within me, I know that the Holy Spirit touched my whole being.
The preacher talks about God as our superhero. That no matter what we’re going through at the moment, God already knows what we need even before we prayed for it. I silently observed my husband and I’m happy to see that he’s cooperating and he reacts positively when the preacher threw some jokes.
Another scripture that really touched my heart.
“And in the same way – by our faith – the Holy Spirit helps us with our daily problems and in our praying. For we don’t even know what we should pray for nor how to pray as we should, but the Holy Spirit prays for us with such feeling that it cannot expressed in words. And the Father who knows all hearts knows, of course, what the spirit is saying as he pleads for us in harmony with God’s own will.”
I almost cried, because that’s exactly what I’ve been doing. For all the things that me and my husband is facing at the moment, I really don’t know what to pray or how I would pray for it. I just said “bahala ka na Lord kung ‘sa mo ko gusto ilagay, you already know what we need even before I pray for it. I trust that your plans is better than mine.”
It’s just so nice to really feel that when you keep on asking for God’s direction and you tried hard to listen, you’ll hear something. You know it when you feel it.
I know that the Lord, thru the Holy Spirit touched my whole being that night. I almost cried, I just don’t want my husband to see me crying. I was praying whole-heartedly while the ministry was singing “Thy Word”. I was praying, Lord, you already all my worries. I surrender to you my whole being and I trust that you will guide me to the abundance of your plans for me and soon to be a small family. You know that I cry in prayer everyday because I feel hopeless but you strengthen me each day and I believe in your power. I trust you in every bit of myself.” Then when I opened my eyes, this line flashes on the big screen, “We will make a way.” I felt so weak that I would want to sit because I know and I feel that it’s the Lord talking to me. With all the scriptures that I read everyday, I know that he’s been talking to me. I really felt that the Lord is with me that he listened to every prayer I have for each day.
There were a few interviews before the talk ends. After we dropped our love offering, we left the venue. I was quiet. I don’t want to start the conversation with my husband. I want him to start the conversation on how he felt about our first time in “The Feast.”
Then suddenly, my husband said, “Okay naman, mahaba lang. Pero hindi ako kinilabutan.” then I replied, “Kasi una pa lang may doubts ka na. Pero kung nagtiwala ka una pa lang, you’ll feel it.” Then he said, “hmm baka nga.” His responses were fine with me. At least he appreciates the teachings. He’s not into it 100% but I can give him more time. I know that he will still allow us to attend “The Feast”.
I’m thankful for this day. I will post another blog why my husband is super hesitant to attend a non-catholic ministry.
PS: There was no mass but it’s in their plans. It should be 5:30-6:30 pm which follows the preaching until 7:30 pm. They are praying for it. Hopefully in the coming days, in God’s speed, this will be granted.